Welcome! Lenkaland shares my adventures in creative photography, raising two kids, writing, living with chronic illness, raising a daughter with dyslexia, and swimming with mermaids. Hope you have a nice stay!

The Winding Road

The longer I stay away, the harder it gets to post. I fall so behind! I didn't get to write about this.
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20120504-213704.jpg The story skipped Easter, our overnight trip to the Monterey Bay Aquarium, her Pioneer School days, and her birthday!

Oh my, this mama gets overwhelmed! I am also working on two big writing projects that I hope to share soon. And we are rehearsing for Peter Pan in class. And my calendar is filling with doctor appointments.

I have constant pain again. This time in my hip. So we are in investigaton-phase. Hopefully it's easily fixed :). That is always the hope, right?

When I stop to reflect these days, I get wildly anxious. I know I do too much. I don't know how to slow down. I feel like this frenzy will lead to better space. But in the meantime, I don't know how to patch myself together until I reach those calmer waters. With my husband still searching for work, I am the primary breadwinner in the family. That feels plain wrong, since I am on disability. But it's true. So all of my choices carry big consequences.

If downtime felt indulgent before, it's guilt-ridden now. Any quiet is crowded with chores, creative projects, and helping my daughter with her reading. I have no space for healing. For recharging. It's a crash-and-burn pace. I know it. And I don't know how to change it.

Only a month before summer, hurrah! Summer is usually a great time for me. Turning off wake-up alarms is healthy :)

Meanwhile, May will be insane. No off-days. Tomorrow is full with my side-projects.

In June I get to breathe easier. Until then, I will try not to drop our story again. Short and sweet is better than silent :)

Yes, I was Brave!

Dying Easter Eggs