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Angels and Owls and 4:30am

November 17, 2010 by Lenka 1 Comment »

He looks like an angel here. An angel with bedhead :)

He looks like an angel because it is not 4:30am. This photo was taken at 11:30am after his nice 3 hour morning nap because he was awake at 4:30am. And his favorite game is tackle Mama. Ask for juice 100 times. Climb on top of Mama saying, “Mama? Mama?” as though she’ll sweetly wake and turn on all of the lights and scramble eggs with sausage.

Not this Mama.

Want to learn limits of patience? Argue with a 2 year old at 5am. “Ian, it’s dark.” “Ian, Mama’s sleeping. Anika’s sleeping. Daddy’s sleeping.” “Ian.  Go. To. Sleep.”

Nope. We watched Chuggington and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and Star Wars Clone Wars.  I drifted into hazy dozes where my dreams mumbled in Mickey Mouse voices, where characters clashed with lightsabers blazing.  And each time I thought, “This is it, he’s down this time.”  Until a commercial or the show ended when he nudged me for attention.

Of course, the minute I put him in the car to drive Anika to school, he was asleep.  Fast asleep.

Asleep enough that I worked on my owl project when we arrived home.  I wanted sleep so badly for those last night hours, but once the clock passed 8am, I couldn’t settle down.  No such luck.  So the owls are here!

This lucky first edition owl is the easiest version, a sample for my 18 Dragonfly kids who may be sewing them on Friday.  I have ideas for a heart face layer.  First, I wanted to see the simple version.  The pattern that I am getting together for our Etsy store will have options to make it fancier.  I had fun making him, and Ian had a ball playing with him.

Ian;s Owl Puppet

I don’t need heirloom crafts.  I like crafts that I can give my kids, that won’t bother me if they throw it on the ground or stuff it in a pocket.

As I made the owl, I figured out my crafting motto:  I don’t believe in perfect, I believe in personality :)

My goal is the opposite of professional-looking crafts.  Instead, fun and adventure matters.  This owl is made for playing :)

Two milestones today.  Ian officially stopped calling his sister Ah.  Her name has been Ah for over a month, “Ah, dinner, Ah.” And “Ah, stop.  No, Ah!”  And we tried teaching him a nickname, but she was Ah.

Today she became Ah-ka.  ”Ahka, where you?”  ”Ahka, stop!”  ”No, Ahka!”

Another sweet name, but I’ll always remember Ah :)

Then, Anika was sewing with me yesterday.  ”This relaxes me,” she said.  ”I like to make things.”  I remembered the knitting rings I bought a couple of years ago but proved too challenging last year.  I pulled them out and, ta-da!  She’s a knitter (of sorts).  She’s using these Knifty Knitter looms to make her first hat.  Oh, we’re in trouble now when we go to the yarn store :)

She said it was easy this time.  She learned at school on her castle knitting- which is like the mushroom-knitters.  I wonder if she’ll finish the hat . . .

For now, we’re both having fun on the couch.  I get my twenty minutes (all that I can do before my fingers start going numb) on her fingerless gloves, and she works away at her hat.  I love watching my kids grow.

Speaking of kids, I teach tomorrow.  And I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night.  Off to dreamland :)

 

Clonetrooper Dreams

August 29, 2010 by Lenka No Comments »

Clonetrooper Ian

Ian fell asleep tonight with his Star Wars mask propped on his head. I tried a couple of times to adjust it or rest it beside him, but each time he work up grumpy and yanked it back over his head. Do Clonetroopers have unique dreams?

Ian dreams of Clonetrooping

 

Living with CMT, Day 13,825

May 11, 2010 by Lenka 2 Comments »

It has been awhile since I checked in on my life with the CMT perspective.  Probably because I’ve been doing pretty well living above the usual frustrations.  Had a string of good days.  Very nice.  Very tempting to think I have this dance figured out.

Then I wake up today feeling like sludge. Slow.  Heavy.  In a fog.

I’m reading a book on hidden disability that calls it a flare up.  I call it the crash.  Or the wall.  The hard part is not knowing that I overdid it until the next day.  Or that the wall is coming until it hits hard.  I wish I could be better at pacing, or planning, or figuring out how much gas is actually in my tank.  Every day is so different these days.

Toddlers.  Ian did not sleep well last night.  At least an hour and maybe more of pestering me awake every time I dozed off between 3-5 in the morning.  Joy.

And I might be catching a cold.  That’s another challenge.  Not knowing what is triggered by CMT and what may be completely unrelated.  I tend to blame the CMT until I am full blown sick.  Then I realize, oh, that’s why it’s been such a struggle. But I’m not getting sick this time.  I won’t.  :)

Oh, and a storm came through so it’s been cold again.  The aching feet are back.  Relief doesn’t last long.

Teaching tomorrow so early bedtime tonight.  Sleep, baby boy, sleep . . .

 

Among the Truffela Trees

February 10, 2010 by Lenka No Comments »

Sleeping boy with his toes escaping the blanket . . .

The new game involved Ian sitting on a diaper package.  Anika pushed him three inches before he fell and she fell in fits of laughter.  The highlight of my day.

We had consumed-by-busy day.  We saw the second grade at NCSA perform The Lorax.  What a sweet and fun play.  They did a fantastic job.

Then Homework Club after school.  The kids are growing by wild leaps.  I’m thrilled to be part of their journey.

At home we were all about Valentine’s.  There is no school on Friday so tonight we finished cards for Anika’s class and my class.  Speaking of, I never did finish those cards.  I better get busy :)

Oh, an Anika’s pet name for Ian these days is Baby Bock.  Something to do with a chicken.  She’s a creative one :)

Oh, oh, and Paul and Mila are coming to Santa Cruz.  Whoohoo!  I think the party is thirty people strong now.  Can. Not. Wait!

 

In Search of Sleep . . .

January 7, 2010 by Lenka No Comments »

Phew.  Ian did not sleep well.  He roused every two hours with the worst restlessness between 1-2am.  I’d just fallen deep asleep when he started kicking. He is a lucky baby and gets to cosleeep.  Usually we’re a happy pile, especially lately.

I was surprised when his wails only grew louder instead of settling down.  I got him water and it took him forty minutes to relax.  By then I was wide awake and it took me another twenty minutes to crash out.  Alarm pealing at 6am so . . . four hours of sleep?

No wonder I’m crumbling today.  I pulled it together for school and two meetings long into the afternoon/evening.  Stepped into the house at 5pm and hit. the. wall.  Medication today did fine until I crashed this evening.  The flu-like symptoms/side effects returned.  Ugh.

The shine of the day really is my students and school.  I have such a wonderful class.  We started reading groups and the students announce, I can read! Makes my heart glad.  And in the meetings I felt the commitment and investment of so many people into the well being of every students at our school.  What an amazing place.

Tomorrow will be payback, I know.  But I’m excited for a fun weekend.  So I must keep the to do list short tomorrow morning.  Only laundry, packing, cleaning bathroom, and Anika’s room.  Only :)

 

Autumn in our Backyard

October 11, 2009 by Lenka 1 Comment »

A few pictures from this evening.  Leaves are changing by the swingset.  The roses love this gentle fall sunshine.  A storm is supposed to arrive tomorrow so we’ll see how many roses, and leaves, weather the first wet breath of winter.  Until then . . .

Anika is a Chinchilla on the Swingset

Anika is a Chinchilla on the Swingset

Bear is Growing!

Bear is Growing!

Fall Leaves in Sunset Light

Fall Leaves in Sunset Light

Yellow Rose at Sunset

Yellow Rose at Sunset

And we are back on mission Sleeping Like a Baby.  This time, we are past bedtime (yay) and trying to get through the night without mama-snacks.  So far we had a major setback when he caught a fever.  We are on Night Two of the Second Attempt.  I am so visualizing sleep.  Sleep, Ian, sleep . . .

My Hope for Tonight

My Hope for Tonight

 

Sleeping Like a Baby, Days 3, 4 and 5

August 2, 2009 by Lenka No Comments »

Days fly past.  Ian is sad in his bed right now.  About seven minutes into bedtime.  I’ll go check on him in a minute.  He was asleep when I put him down.  Oh, quiet . . . he’s calming down.

Still breaks my heart, though.  Oh, no, there he goes again.  The thing that makes me feel a little more okay is seeing him through the daytime.  He still laughs and wrestles and giggles and squeals with joy.  He’s still himself.  I would like to make it a gentle, so-sweet, painless transition for us both, but I haven’t heard the magic trick for baby sleeping alone and happy short term.  Long term, he’ll be okay.

He’s quiet now.  He did take a nap with no tears yesterday.  Slept for an hour.  I scoop him up when he makes noise after he initially falls asleep.  And so far he sleeps at least three hours at night and up to an hour for nap.  He’ll get more comfortable and confident.

There, less than ten minutes tonight for quiet.  He’ll be fine.  And I’m feeling better not holding him for hours in the evening.  I get desert now :) .  I can write a little :) .  And with school starting next week, I need Mama time, too.  He’s eleven months old.  He knows we adore him.  He misses us, of course, and we miss him.  But time apart is okay, too.  Good nights.

 

Sleeping Like a Baby Day 2: Nap

July 30, 2009 by Lenka No Comments »

Phew!  So I thought I wouldn’t mess with nap, but Ian started his nurse-down, no-wait-I’m-awake-now dance.  He was obviously tired, yet distracted by every little thing.  So we put him in the crib and soothed him and walked away.  Thirty minutes, three checks, sad-mad baby falls asleep.  Poor little guy.  But I know that the result is worth working towards.  A little time for just me is important these days.

The second round of comforting, I banged my hip on the child-gate on the stairs.  Full-speed crash metal against bone.  Ouch!  And it’s the reminder that I need grounding.  When I feel sick (like I do) and when I mess with my emotional stability (like letting my baby cry when I want to scoop him up and love him up and make it all better), I lose my place in the world.  Doctors say that since my nueropathy cannot accurately place myself in space, I tend to bump into corners, drop objects, and misjudge distances.  I depend on visual cues for balance.

So slow down.  Slow on down.

Thirty minutes isn’t bad.  Wonder how bedtime will play out . . .